What does it mean to have faith? Does it mean that we remember God before we eat or during our daily (or sometimes weekly) devotional? For one of my colleagues, it means everything. She left her family and moved 3000 miles away without a job or a support network. I asked her why she did it and she said, because God led me here. I was blown away. She said that she never had fear or anxiety over her move and when it is time for her to move on, she will. Amazing. I asked her how she knew that it was God leading her and she said that she knows him. How does she know him? She reads her scriptures and loses herself in prayer. Wow.
I have set off to fast and pray many times, but I always find some excuse to not follow through. I want that kind of faith. I want that kind of strength or better yet, I want that level of surrender. I want to surrender my heart and my soul and give it to the Lord. Fasting is tough for me but when I have meditated in scripture, I have found a tiny piece of what she lives every day. In this crazy age we live in, without that constant connection, it would be so easy to lose your way and that is what I fear. I need to stop fearing and start praying.
How many of us really know who we are and why we are here on this Earth? I have only begun to figure this out and even now, I am walking through a fog but I am faithful. I am writing this blog to chronicle my prayers, struggles and triumphs in times that I fear that will become more dangerous in the next few years.
I have chosen mountains because they symbolize God in our world. They are beautiful and generous. They demand respect and reverence. Next to them I am small and powerless.
I said earlier that I am walking in a fog. It is also true that God is with me (and everyone who accepts Him) and is my guide. I only need to surrender and ask for His guidance. Sometimes I am forgetful or distracted and during those times I tend to feel lost.
I give my life to the God of Abraham, Isaac and Joseph. Jesus is my rock, my savior and my guiding light. I believe in the Bible as the true Word of God. My faith is in the resurrection of Jesus Christ. I pray for Israel with every fiber of my being for the Lord has not forgotten His chosen people. For our leaders, I pray for discernment and strength. For our nation, I pray for mercy for we have lost our way.
I am eager to see where this leg of my journey will take me.
